twenty-five

At thirteen, I thought I would be prettier if I had fair skin

At twenty, I fell in love with my uneven brown skin tone

At twenty-five, why am I going back to feeling thirteen? 

At thirteen, everyone around me laughed at me for being short

At twenty, I told myself that my height was cute

At twenty-five, why am I going back to feeling thirteen?

At thirteen, I wanted to feel validated and liked by boys

At twenty, I put myself first and started loving myself

At twenty-five, I’m glad there is no change here (haha).

At thirteen, I hated my unruly, frizzy and curly hair

At twenty, I understood how to accept my natural curls

At twenty-five, why am I going back to feeling thirteen?

At thirteen, I did everything to impress people around me

At twenty, I slowly stopped living for others

At twenty-five, why am I going back to feeling thirteen?

At thirteen, I was devastated when I had to start wearing specs,

At twenty, I was comfortable and liked wearing it,

At twenty-five, why am I going back to feeling thirteen?

At thirteen, I was a self-conscious and an insecure mess

At twenty, I learnt to embrace all my flaws

At twenty-five, I will not be forced to feel like I am thirteen again.

At twenty-five, I will not allow myself to feel like I'm thirteen again and continue to love myself.